What people think of you is none of your business.

Seriously. People will think what they think and it really doesn’t matter. Be you anyway.

I had the unique opportunity on Monday to sit in a courthouse for roughly seven hours in anticipation of being called into the courtroom to testify in a trial. The most interesting part of it is that I would have been defending love, my points of view on capacity to love and what love looks like. The opposing counsel chose to stalk me and especially my daughter in an attempt to discredit me – in roughly five pieces of ‘evidence’ from my daughter’s Instagram account as well as this blog. This handful of documents/photos was to tell the entire story of my [more than] 19 years of being a mother, full-time.

Now, let me provide another interesting point of view….I spent the beginning of my career working for and managing law offices. I’m quite familiar with internal process of prepping for trials, digging up details and transcribing depositions. Being on the other end of it where I was the one being subpoenaed was an entirely different experience. After listening to the evidence that was entered into the trial, a wave of heat, raised blood pressure and sickness in my stomach washed over me.

Consciously controlling the mechanisms in my body to manage the feelings of anger and ‘fight or flight’ rising up from the portrait this counsel was attempting to paint of me and my conduct as a mother and influence on others was an awareness I invite everyone to begin to play around with.

• Breathe. Find your breath and dig deep.
• Notice the foot that is incessantly tapping.
• Breathe. In through your nose, out through your mouth.
• Drop ice cubes into the pot of water in your stomach that feels like it might begin to boil.
• Breathe. Ask, who does this belong to?
• Notice how your body feels. Light? Heavy? What is in your control?
• Breathe. Notice your heart rate slowing.
• Pause. Say less. Observe.
• Breathe.

That was my internal process that day. While I used these techniques, I was also diving deeper into the Body Whisperer book, ironically on the chapter dedicated to Judgment. This helped me manage myself throughout the seven hour wait to find out shortly after 4pm the trial was over, fortunately without needing to call me to the stand. I feel it was because even the courts could see through the absurd story meant for slander with no credible basis.

However, this whole experience has certainly invited me to second guess a lot of the information that gets disseminated from media sources, especially around hot topics. I’ve ALWAYS felt drawn to ignoring most of what I see, read or hear and instead trust my own intuition. I now feel more confident than ever in my ability to discern truth from energy, because it does not lie.

The thing about judgment is that it’s an ingrained habit, and it’s no one’s fault that they picked it up. It’s almost like a reflex. We’ve been conditioned to judge everything about us. Everything we think, everything we choose, everything we do is labels as good or bad, write or wrong. -Dr. Dain Heer, The Body Whisperer

Replace judgment with awareness.

This includes the things you feel are positive. Read that again. Yes. If we are truly practicing non-judgment, this means even the things we perceive as good or positive must remain as awareness. Relative to the situation I attracted to myself on Monday, I remember when I perceived the person who hired the opposing counsel as good, sweet even, when her words were something my mind wanted to hear. It wasn’t until I became quiet and listened with awareness when I quickly begin to realize her words didn’t match the energy.

It’s no wonder why my journey has had such a focus on awareness since January. While the catalyst was not something I would ever wish for anyone to start a new year, it is and forever will be about the journey and not the destination.

I am grateful to share space with many truly beautiful, kind souls who nudge and want nudged in the direction of presence, personal awareness and being, with no judgment.

Only space for healing, growth and choice to live with ease, joy and glory.

I LOVE YOU ALL.

I invite you to receive all of God’s glory today.

Breathe it in!

And, exhale some of it out to the others.

There is plenty to go around.